My Grief

Who knows but he whose heart has felt the need
Of consolation, only time can give;
But he whose soul has cried out to be freed,
To leave the living and beside the dead to live.
That little stool within the corner there
Is hallowed by a presence; I can see
Her gaily seated on its top so worn and bare,
With roguish eyes and dimples smiling up at me.

When winter sun is mirrored on the floor,
It seems ’tis but the glory of her hair.
I fancy I can see her near the door:
Is it so very wonderful or yet so rare?
‘Tis only he, who thru the day and night
Has felt the iteration of his grief,
Who striving blindly thru the darkness, seeks the light;
Who knows the gnawing pangs of loss, without relief.

It seems her little chair calls out to me
With sorrow in its voice, that I too share.
Where are her toys; her doll she brought to me
To tie a ribbon on its tangled, curly hair?
Three weary months, each day a month itself,
Yet still I feel the anguish Death has wrought;
I cannot lay my grief on a forgotten shelf;
I must find comfort in an endless train of thought.

– Circa 1934

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To Death

Let me be watching the lightening
The destructive sweep of the rain;
Let me carry a vision of strength with me,
Of power that is strong as eternity
When you come to my door again.

Don’t let your onslaught be gentle,
Come girded with power and with might;
Only let me be waiting bright-eyed awake,
Let the lightening flash and the thunder break
And the day be dark as night.

I have a siege to war with you
And I care not for creeping stealth.
Let me fight you with weapons that match your own,
The flash of steel and the clatter of stone
And not with the weapons of wealth.

You’ve robbed me twice of my treasures
In the warmth and glow of the day;
You left me with nought but an ache in my heart
Long nights to waken so oft with a start
With your scepter across my way.

Give me one echo of warning
Just to say that the time draws near;
I will glory once more in the sweep of rain
In the flash of your blade with crimson stain
When you knock at my portal here.

– Circa 1936

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Tiny Blossom

In a sweet old-fashioned garden on a sunny kind of day
There once bloomed a tiny blossom, or so the folks do say;
Its little heart was golden, and its petals fairest blue;
It took them back along the trail to other days and you.
And just because ’twas memory within that wayside plot
They called that flower of heaven’s hue, a blue for-get-me-not.

– Circa 1935

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Flanders Revisited

Down roads of remembrance, our footsteps oft stray
Thru the dusk at the close of a long Autumn day;
To No-man’s or Flanders, where poppies flaunt red;
To the Garden of Courage, the graves of our dead.
Then up thru the air, it is only a prayer,
But a blessing has fallen on somebody’s head.

We have but remembrance to cherish and last,
But a wee thread of memory to cling to the past.
Does a cross mark his grave where silent he lies
‘Neath the brown of the earth, ‘neath the blue of the skies?
Night time is falling – it seems he is calling;
But the voice of the night wind is all that replies.

Dear loved one in Flanders, how often I long
For a touch of the hand that was steady and strong;
A word or a whisper; a moment to see,
Just one glimpse of those eyes and that smile brave and free.
I look up with joy: is it, is it my boy?
No, only the rustling of leaves answers me.

And on thru the hours when the midnight is deep,
Now I smile, now I stir, in the midst of my sleep.
In sorrow, in gladness, my memory takes wing
Unto yesterday’s pathways where red poppies spring;
Where crosses on row – and my soldier below -,
Ah dear Road of Remembrance what comfort you bring!

– Circa 1934

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Old Memories

In Memory’s name I tread o’er trails
Where once the violets blue
Bedecked the green and shaded glades
That sheltered me and You.

The same old stream goes rippling by
Its banks o’er-clung with vine;
And the same old breeze is crooning
Its song amid the pines.

Across the old and purple hills
Sweet Echo laughs in glee;
Sends her call, the same old charm,
Again to you and me.

– Circa 1928

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Longings

I’d love a little attic room where any time of day
I could take up my pen and pad and hide myself away.
The sunbeams stealing through the rift of windows opened high
My pen would prison fast those thoughts that long to reach the sky:
A little room, an attic room, a room where I may stray
And hold the sunbeams in my hands before they flee away.

I’d love a little glimpse of light, the kind that makes you feel,
All warm, yet shivery inside; the kind that would reveal
A hundred thousand little things that hurry by each day
To leave me standing wistfully and yearning by the way.
I’d love a little glimpse of light, the kind my heart replies
God must have made to sparkle in a mother’s tender eyes.

I’d love a little attic and I’d love a little light;
But holding back these two from me, God surely must be right
For when the night time startles my head upraised in prayer
God and my angel mother, then, I know you are with me, there;
The attic room, the tiny light, so small they flee away
And leave me so ashamed of all the longings of the day.

– Circa 1925

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Little Life

Little life, so fragile were your heartbeats;
So sweetly innocent your sudden fleeting smile;
So tiny were your footsteps on the carpet in the hall
I only realized blankly, vaguely at the while
That they were gone;
And I poor foolish mortal,
I thought that you were mine to have, to love forever;
And I, dumb, senseless creature,
O could I have one moment how much more would I store away
Of priceless love and memories,
Born in one moment,
Than I gained from a few, too brief years.

– Circa 1935

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Little Things

It’s little things that spur me onward;
Little things that bid me try;
It’s little hopes and little pleasures;
Little sunbeams in the sky.
Just tiny baby fingers twining
Round my neck, a soft caress;
I thank thee, God, that Thou hast given
Little things to love and bless.
– Circa 1931

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Lilac Retreat

Before the days of ‘lectric lights
Porcelain baths, steam heat,
We used to own a little house:
‘Twas called Lilac Retreat.
‘Twas painted white and scrubbed so clean
And grass grew round the door;
Oftimes a tiny tuft of green
Would push up thru’ the floor.
Two lilac bushes grew beside
This little house so white.
Their voices blended into one
Soft murmur in the night.
To-day we find no little paths
Pressed down by many feet
For none can boast their garden holds
A white lilac retreat.

– Circa 1950

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I Let You Go

It seemed a little thing to do
To laugh at love and go my way;
To sip the cup of life with you
And then forget that yesterday.
To follow whims and fancies free
For whims were but a part of me.

I laughed at love, but why? ah me,
I never gave it thought or care.
I took it; then at fancy free
I tossed it from me in the air.
By nature moodish, laughing, wild,
Impulses stirred me, as a child.

It seemed a little thing to me
To flaunt and laugh at love that day,
Until you turned and left me free
To laugh, and love, and go my way.
I let you go. Why? From the start
I loved you, yet I played the part.
And now I laugh to hide the pain
That lingers still within my heart.

– Circa 1928

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