Would I Too

Would I too have grown crosser with the years
And scolding called you from a happy game?
I do not think one cross word would have ‘scaped
My lips, though years had flown just the same.
I loved you too much to have chided if
Your little feet made muddy footprints here.
See! Even on that ledge, your grubby hands
Are outlined on the window’s white so clear.
I do not know-, I never will know-,
The years have come, and gone, and taken you;
But still I think I would have hugged my child
Whose hands were smudgy, dress perhaps dirty too.
I would have kissed your soft pink baby feet,
And held you, little one, close unto me.
I think I know, the years would not have made
An old and scolding mother out of me.
I would have laughed and played each day with you,
Have grown younger with you, little one.
But still, I can but say, I think I would-,
I cannot say I’m sure I would have done.

– Circa 1952

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Divination

Heaven spread her cloak of blackness
Far, far across the world last night.
Life, with love and hope divining,
With its teardrops formed a lining-,
And they glistened in the dimness, snowy white.
From the hilltop in its starkness
Winds blew through that cloak of darkness
As it hurried on its chilly dawning flight.

Robe that looked so dark and brooding,
O who could know what light it hid?
Silently and softly falling,
Speeding ones to laggards calling-,
In their haste those teardrops trembled as they sped.
And this morn in all its splendor,
Pensive, white, so sweetly tender,
Like a bride the glad earth raised its vestal head.

Every blade of grass that lifted
Appealing hands up through the snow-,
Every branch and tree that quivered
When the winds around them shivered,
Now hung passive, in a soft, resplendent glow:
For the hand of God had given
Peace to earth so newly shriven.
Thus His blessing soothed the penitent, I know.

The winds and waves obey His word.
He calls new life from out earth’s womb.
He clothes the lilies of the field;
I can feel his peaceful presence in my room.
‘Tis well, I know my steps are led
Unto the living-, not the dead,
For He promised resurrection from the tomb.

– Circa 1928

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There is no Pinnacle

There is no pinnacle so high
Where one could touch the boundaries of the sky:
No truth to man made clear, however true,
But doubt assails, and fears affront-, and you
Seeking some channel of escape from life
Find there the bitterness of futile strife.
From life one gains
But death;- and gaining death finds life ahead.
For life springs forth
From out the dust of yet the living dead.

– Circa 1928

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Penitent

A morn that only God could give.
A morn in which to rise and live.
A noon so still I felt His breath
Staying the passing wings of Death.
An eve so great and yet so sweet
That man and beast knelt at His feet.
A night brimmed o’er with love to spare-,
God must have walked among us there.
And I, through that God-given day
Was lost in thought along life’s way.
So now-, I go to ask of Him
Will He forgive my idle whim?
For I, the dreamer, caught a gleam
And only wove a poet’s dream.

– Circa 1927

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I Held You Close

I held you close.
O breathless moment when your lips touched mine:
I heard the quick, oft intake of your breath.
The door unto your heart was opened
But a moment-,
Then closed to me,
Today, tomorrow, and forever.

– Circla 1928

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Little One Whose Hands Are Stilled

O little one whose hands are stilled,
O little one of mine,
I would not call you back to earth:
The joy to hold you in my arms again,
It is not worth
The pain to see
You drink of sorrow’s wine.

O little one whose sunny smile
Has always been so dear,
I press and fold your little clothes:
Within my heart there is a weight of stone:
Ah! No one knows
How lone I feel
To find you are not here.

O little one God’s gift of you
Was heart and soul of me:
But through my own fond foolish way
Of loving you too much, I lost you too.
I found that day
Unto all life
I held unused the key.

Yet, even yet, the hurt is there,
O little one of mine:
Though God has tamed my will so wild
Words will not come: dear Lord, help me to pray
As when a child:
So may I trust
The will of the Divine.

O little one whose baby lips
Were suckled at my breast,
Help me to walk my Calvary:
Hold back the bitterness in me until
It leaves me free:
So will I find
In memory, my rest.

– Circa 1936

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Live My Life

I’d like to live my life as I
See fit to live it here.
To let my thoughts soar to the sky
Or drift ‘twixt earth and air.

I’d like to love the man I choose
Not give heed what folks might say;
To live; to love; to gain; to lose;
My life my own each day.

I’d like to travel where I would
With none to interfere
To be as I would, bad or good,
In mischief here or there.

I want to love whom I mustn’t love,
Do things that I shouldn’t do;
But old conventions hold me bound;
And family standards too.

– Circa 1924

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Retrospect

It seems to me but yesteryear
I watched him fly a kite, so high
It cleared the trees, to soar into
A sky of blue-, its course so true
I marveled at the deep infinity.
Tho’ swiftly pass the years, they scarcely touch
The heart of youth. I little saw him grow
He was so close to me-, until
One day he seemed so straight and tall;
I knew that in a not far distant day
He, too, would feel his wings: my little son
With corn gold hair and eyes that laughed
With mischief in their deep blue depths.
He smiled at me the day he left;
He held me close and kissed my misted eyes.
He seemed again a little boy
Who watched a kite fly high into the skies:
And still again that little one
Whose pride and joy was in a plane:
The symbol of a day to come-,
This little one who came to me to bind
A cut and bleeding knee-, or kiss a hurt-,
Or search, a missing toy to find.
If now I shed a tear sometimes, I know
He will not mind, for deep within my heart
I know he went, as he would gladly go
Across the waste of far-flung skies.
I know he felt the breath of God, and heard
His voice those many times he flew
Into the silence of the blue,
Scarred deeply with the flare of man-made might,
With roar and belch of guns, and burst of flame.
And even there
Amid the death of war, I know God came
To fill each soul with hope and light;
The while each moment he could feel
The passing wings of death upon its flight.

His body lies on distant soil,
Perhaps unmarked, in land unknown to me.
But all the memories of that little boy
Are mine, to have, to hold, to see.
For still he lives within my heart;
Perhaps you, who know, may wonder why
My step is light, my smile is bright,
Tho’ he is gone, yet I am glad of eye.
He died for you, and you and me,
But he lives on in every tiny thing
I see, that brings him close to me.
In those young, stalwart sons of ours
We see each day upon their way,
Who went to live, and fight, and die,
To live again for Victory.

– Circa 1947

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He Liveth Yet in Me (written in memory of Sgt. Richard Elliott, killed in action in Italy,1945)

His life was young; his years too few;
And yet his eyes saw much of age
As in a war-filled year or two,
He wrote his name on history’s page.

But still for those who loved him most
He would have gone no other way;
As in his life he held his post
And gave that life in battle’s fray.

He needs no funeral march of friends
Unto his one last resting place,
His requiem be – he gave his life
For freedom’s sake to all his race.

He needs no other winding sheet
Than that same earth which saw him fall;
Whilst high above the stars shall guard
His resting place like candles tall.

When the deep nights that are now filled
With rumble of the battle gun;
Are once more silent, hushed and stilled
In peace will sleep each soldier son.

His loved ones’ eyes are filled with tears,
Their hearts beat fast and slow with pain,
They know that down the reach of years
His voice will never sound again.

He rests and by his side there sleep
Those soldier pals who with him died.
The clouds of heaven look down and weep
For all those soldiers crucified.

The hands of God shall touch the earth
To bring you peace in passing by.
His breath shall waken flowers to birth
When stilled will be the battle cry.

And he, who gave his life for you
And you and you and me,
Will live again in all we do;
In all we ever hoped he’d be.

O loved ones who have most to bear,
His torch is handed on to you,
For well he knew that in your care
Its flame would burn forever true.

Although his earthly body lies
In distant land, beyond the sea,
In memory, his life shall rise
Before you, always young and free.

He still lives on; he cannot die
Your cherished, gallant soldier son.
He heard the fatal, battle cry
And knew it meant, “God’s will be done.”

He sees, and seeing knows that you
Who comfort find in memory
Will know, that all our soldier boys
Like him, “still liveth yet in me.”

– 1945 (on hearing word of Sgt. Elliott’s death)

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Lunenburg

O, the blue of sky, with white clouds tossed
Like puffs of foam, fluffed high;
The blue of sea, with white sails furled
“Mid seagulls scream and cry.
O, the tangy scent of salted cod,
Steeped fresh with the salt of sea,
Are bedded now as a sacred trust
Deep within my memory.

I can see the roads that twist and turn
With the bend of winding shore,
All pebbled white ‘neath the march of time
With its wealth of treasured lore.
I can se the flaming ball of fire
Like a jewel on the sea,
For its beauty lingers with each thought
Like a haunting melody.

O, yon little town, so white and green
‘Neath the sheen of the setting sun,
With your fisher folk, their welcome smiles,
Their joy at a task well done;
With your white-washed sands where the clams spew up
Like a child in playful glee:
May I ever keep within my heart
The peace that you brought to me.

– circa 1949

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